A Message From Your Future Self

I promised myself not to tell the old story.

The one where I took magic mushrooms and experienced what felt like a six-hour panic attack—a full-on ego death that felt like I was dying. It cracked me open in ways I wasn't ready for. For years, the memory of it stayed with me like smoke in the lungs—hard to cough out, harder to ignore. Recurring flashbacks and severe anxiety were my new normal for a long time.

It took me a long time to realize that I wasn’t just trying to forget. I was choosing not to rehearse it anymore. Not to keep the fear alive by repeating it, feeding it, looping it. I had no interest in reliving a trauma I barely survived.

But something happened recently.

I came across a reel on Instagram where someone asked an AI about things science hasn’t yet fully explained. When it came to psychedelics, the answer stunned me.

I sat with it for a long time.

Because the truth is—I am that future self now.

I’m the one who lived through the storm and made it out. The one who knows now that it wasn’t a punishment, but an invitation I couldn’t yet understand. Back then, I took something incredibly potent with a naive, recreational mindset. No container. No guidance. No real respect for what I was stepping into. It blew open the doors before I had the strength to walk through them.

That’s not something I glorify or recommend. Psychedelics are not toys or shortcuts. They are wild keys, and they don’t ask for permission. They need reverence, not recklessness.

But that message—from the AI, from the poem, from the deeper part of me—made something click.

It reminded me that awakening doesn’t always look like peace and bliss. Sometimes it looks like terror. Like everything you ever believed burning to the ground. But maybe that was the point.

Not to destroy me.
But to awaken me.
Not to punish.
But to prepare.

And now, looking back, I see something I couldn’t see then:
That moment wasn’t the end. It was the seed.

So instead of retelling the story to keep the trauma alive, I tell it now to keep the wisdom alive.

And here’s the invitation I want to leave you with:

You don’t need to take anything to receive the message. You can sit with it now.
Close your eyes. Imagine the version of you that already made it—the one who lives more freely, more truly, more awake. That future self exists.

What illusion are you still trapped in today that they’ve already outgrown?
What truth would they whisper back through time to you, right now?

Listen.
The message is already on its way.

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